Big turn offs

The Meaning of My Life

I have just had the biggest epiphany in my life. I only just realized what happiness is. I have lived my life searching for happiness. I was searching frantically or working hard and sacrificing everything for a piece of happiness. What I realized is that "happiness is not a destination". It is here it is now. and it is not necessarily easy to see but my life is filled with little thing that should make me happy. Because I couldn't find happiness I clung to the sources where i found moments of happiness. Which were all the women in my life. I held onto them so tight because they became my main source of happiness. Even when they ended I still held on tight because I was so crushed by the loss of what I thought was happiness. My life is unraveling before my eyes. every thing makes so much sense because of a sign that reads "Happiness is not a destination it is here and now."

the violent see-saw

Life is like a see-saw except it has a little less pizzazz. Every time you get good and high a brick smashes you in the face. That brings you right back down. :)

Good riddance

Things you say to someone can really affect your mood. I feel like a weight is lifted. I’m psyched to go brush my teeth and wake up to talk to better and less ugly ppl (on the whole). I can’t wait for this costume party on Friday its gunna be sick. I am ready to rock out with red cape, skirt and spear in hand. Friday night we dine in hell. Hehe.
Mets day tomorrow at school. I get to rock my Mets jersey. Sweetness!
And it is hump day coolio!

single?

Single hmmmmm... only time can tell

To be... or not to be... single

I had a fun filled weekend. Friday was a drag but not really cause I got to beat halo. Saturday I went and visited Nate for a couple of hours. Played more halo... Then I went up to NP to Get my drink on with my old teammates. the first night was good old-fashioned beer pong... With a quick visit from a very nice cop about noise complaints. So we toned it down. And brought the beer pong inside. that isn't the best part... half of the men at the party were half naked when the cop showed up. I think that cheered her up. I know it cheered me up. I met some more freshman and Christie’s roommates. That night ended early with some Monty python. I proceeded to crash on the couch. Tim had the other one.

Day two---- we went and did our long run at 9 am. got back visited Steve at the shop. got my NEW shoes and a free pair of running socks. The guys and I chilled at the store chit chatting with Steve. Then we got brunch at HAZ -Fuck. Then we showered then Tim and I went over to nick for some halo. Then back to Christies to chill out waiting for George. Then back to Haz for dinner. w/ Christie and George... we used up all the guys guest passes. We stuffed our faces, and then went to go get beer for night of drinking part 2. I drank a lot of beer ate some pizza played beer pong... more nakedness... you get the picture. Then came rob with chunks and I did follow his step about an hour later. Then I passed out on the couch and drawings began.

Being single isn't bad if you drink responsibly and surround yourself with friends. I can get used to this. Ok this is enough time to shower.

I never was this mean to you in MY LIFE

I'm as much a man as you are a woman. Yeah well i'm looking for a friendly woman not a BITCHY woman. I never did anything as a friend to ask for that slap in the face. that was possibly the meanest thing I have ever heard... I won't say any names K