friday alone!

I spend most of my days running around with my head cut off. Air sampling is fun but very hard on the body. I barely get enough sleep to function. Then sometimes I can't get food. Today I wanted food but I was busy talking to my ex. I have been hoping to hold onto a piece of what we had. But that doesn't even look like it's possible. She won't give me a chance. I think it is mostly the social stigma attached to it. It also has to do with what i said/did. Which I feel I made a mistake. For her to go against something she denounced would take away any credibility of what she said. So she will move on. It's not to hard to find really good looking people I just don't want to be that creepy guy in the corner hanging over people. Maybe another night when I am really desperate for some beers. To top it off Shoprite closed before I could go in and get anything. That pissed me off. It is probably better off. You start to enter the gateway of alcoholism when you drink by your lonesome. i can't afford that or actually do that to myself. I want to think of myself as a social drinker.

On top of it all I am in a place where I don't know anybody except the people I work with. And they are all in their 30s- 50s. Their is one supervisor Steve who supposedly is from around here and is "young" like me. I might be able to see him tomorrow and find out the good bars or even get his number to go out with him and some friends. I hope that works. I just have to deal with this a little longer. then maybe on LI I will be able to find some people to go to the bars with. At least I know people there.

This girl erin is cool. she is very spontaneous can turn on a dime funny irish(with red hair green eyes and all. She was that crazy wild side. I like it. Unfortunately she has a boy friend. She is hoping to work out all the kinks this next week. You all know What I think. But I think it's best for her to not make any rash decisions like I made. Oye! I think that is good for one night maybe tomorrow I will talk about how much crazier my life is after hanging out with nate cindy and Val at the bars in the city.