hmmmm....

Why? Why is being single suck... Why do I relate to Dane Cook?... Why can't people pick up their cell phones? Why did the payroll company screw up my paycheck? Why do i write in this blog? Why do I still think of Kim a lot? Why do people get married? ...no matter what happens in life you always start and end life cold and alone. Why does HSBC credit cards suck?... Actually I know that answer. Why cant cingular give me a free phone? Seriously WTF? ARRRRRRRRH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

P.S. why does somebody still have my "alphabet of manliness" book?

Let the bitching begin

Yeah so I have concluded being single sucks. I don't know if I am willing to give up my temporary loneliness for a quick and easy solution. Easy is really an understatement. IT is really just relative to the hardship it will take to develop a new relationship. I am young but today in particular my patience is running thin. Now for the bitching part!!!

For starters... My credit card company wants to charge me $111 for trying to close my account. And every time I tried solving my problem I could never get back to a representative. those representatives never have American accents so it is hard to understand them.

Then I only just got paid for 46 hours OT when Marty told me I got paid for more than 50 hours overtime. I dunno about that. He is away so their is no settling that. Oh yeah and the direct deposit takes two days to clear. arg...

Then... I call Ryan and he doesn't want to go out... Maybe Friday but I am not holding my breath.

Then... running... Yeah I suck... I need to run more. You only get out what you put in. I guess that applies to everything that is happening in my life.

Then... I see that Erin deleted comments of mine off of facebook... I think. I can't be sure though. It just got me frustrated that I haven't received a reply. I did only just send it. So I think I am being impatient. I will give her the benefit of the doubt I am just confused about what is going on right now...

Then I want to talk to Nate but as it turns out he is still at work... So Cindy and I talked...

So who wants to make my life better??? I beg you!

THANK YOU US GOVT you actually got me a beer!

Today was basically my stressfreeday for a week. I didn't have to run around with my head cut off. And I even ran right on the Hudson river. Check out my running blog .I also got to chill poolside at my bosses house. With beer and pretzels at hand I soaked in the hottub for an hour! I was cruising the Internet on some residential wireless networks.

So... then I headed to the mall I tried to get guitar hero... All i want to say is that circuit city doesn't put the customer first UP YOURS CC! Then I headed upstairs to get some food! So I sat at the bar in Fridays. I wanted another Blue moon but my ID is at my bosses house. So I ordered a coke and Jack Daniels chicken Alfredo, I wasn't settling for just a coke.I decided I should check my wallet to see if I could find a document with my birth date. Luckily thanks to my enlistment card I got a pint of Blue moon. THANK YOU US GOVT you actually got me a beer.

I noticed there were two cute girls sitting by them selves at the bar. The first one I saw was sitting right across from me I think she was too young.(I can tell by the lack of alcoholic beverage). the other was really cute and had a drink. She eyed me a couple of times. The only problem was I was eating so I could go with Kim to get harry pot head at midnight. I didn't have the time to approach this girl... arg! Freakin harry potter book. Another reason to dislike Harry Potter!

Outback then 2 for 1 at chille's

Today was an ordinary day at work. But afterward it was a lot of fun. I ate some good meat at Outback steakhouse. Then had some good old Sam seasonal 2 for 1. You can't beat that. Sam Adams summer ale has become my beer of choice.

Kim and I went to dinner right after work. We talked some but mostly we stuffed our faces. Good food with a good girl equals a good time. Then afterwards We headed over to Chile's for the 2 for 1 specials. We met Coleen and her boyfriend there. eventually Gina Sam and Susan showed up. We got to talking. It was good times it wasn't awkward for me. I guess the beer helped. they were very receptive. I didn't get cold shoulders from anybody.

Kim and I talked about some issues that needed to be addressed. We still need a resolution/compromise eventually. I am a free man still no commitments. i tell myself that but no matter what I do I know Kim will at least be in the corner of my mind and in my thoughts. goodnight bye! The leg is twitching time to sleep!

If you can believe it...

I don't know what to say here because Kim and I have decided we are going to work at a relationship again. Who knew? We went out to lunch to talk about it and everything felt right and seemed to fall back into place. BUT... Right now I am still single and I am not holding back for the rest of the summer. It's nice to know her again.... but just the same I have made some plans And I want the chance to play on some field before getting back into a relationship. Anyway Enough said I will be posting on here later, until then STAY CLASSY!

Magnitude of Mammaries

Thanks for the mammaries even though they weren't that great.(That is a lie, because they are great). falloutboy is sooo wrong.

The fortune cookie foretold: "Truth can be harsh, but it can be helpful." so far I am living proof of that. So far tonight has been a slap in the face. But I am getting up again for the next round.

Things aren't going as I had hoped. We all hope for the best. But when things go well things can only get worse... I figure I have more time to play the field now then I ever had and things can only get better. Right? I'm probably still wrong.lol. Then again after talking to Kim again tonight maybe things will get better... My love is like a roller coaster babybaby!

Single life is off to a rough start

The almost non-date with val didn't turn over any stones. the party never happend. Erin is still MIA. Ryan T didn't want to go drinking again. Instead we chatted on aim for an hour around midnight. I was barely able to convince pete to do a LAN/ halo party. And today I have to go back to work where showers are scarce and the DOL guy is out to nail me with a fine. Ugh

Friday

It is friday night, yet again I am all alone... This is going to be rough. Motha f-er. I hate myself on nights like this. But I realize now that I wasn't happy. That is no way to live, not forever addtionally lack of sex factor is getting into my head.

PS mayday parade is my drug of choice tonight and everynight thereafter.

Party at Barcade

Had a boat load of fun at barcade. Nate, cindy Val and I went to an awesome bar in the city. 25 cent old school arcade games, with alcohal equals much fun. Especially getting Cindy drunk. She had never been drunk before last night. Fun times ensued! Valerie was a lot of fun. I didn't have to thrid wheel it. It was fun to flirt with a hottie. It was just fun... :->

Burned

My poor old heart.
Why does it feel so broken
Why does it yern for her
I am stricken... everytime
I see her smile... everytime
I get burned... everytime
I realize it's over!

The Saturday has begun

My Saturday has started off shitty. I was late geting out of West Nyack Elem. I couldn't find the padlock to my classroom I was sleeping in. I left two pumps in the work area I have to remember to take them out of the work area. I left my folder of shit for air testing including maps. I need a shower desparately. I am lonelier than loneliness. I got a great big paycheck that went to the fucking dogs. This week no more double shifts. So i won't get as much money grrr So I have to find SOmething constructive with my time. I can only read so much internet articles on my computer. I brought The foundation trilogy which is a great 1000 page book I could start that over. I forgot WTF was happening in that book. I need to get the pictures from the grand canyon from chris. I will email him today. I need to label/tag pictures from the trip. I can retreive the good pics of me from kims disc. I did pack up all my clothes but they are wrinkled to hell. oye I need to check on the work being done. today these guys are mad fucking slow.
until next time stay classy

friday alone!

I spend most of my days running around with my head cut off. Air sampling is fun but very hard on the body. I barely get enough sleep to function. Then sometimes I can't get food. Today I wanted food but I was busy talking to my ex. I have been hoping to hold onto a piece of what we had. But that doesn't even look like it's possible. She won't give me a chance. I think it is mostly the social stigma attached to it. It also has to do with what i said/did. Which I feel I made a mistake. For her to go against something she denounced would take away any credibility of what she said. So she will move on. It's not to hard to find really good looking people I just don't want to be that creepy guy in the corner hanging over people. Maybe another night when I am really desperate for some beers. To top it off Shoprite closed before I could go in and get anything. That pissed me off. It is probably better off. You start to enter the gateway of alcoholism when you drink by your lonesome. i can't afford that or actually do that to myself. I want to think of myself as a social drinker.

On top of it all I am in a place where I don't know anybody except the people I work with. And they are all in their 30s- 50s. Their is one supervisor Steve who supposedly is from around here and is "young" like me. I might be able to see him tomorrow and find out the good bars or even get his number to go out with him and some friends. I hope that works. I just have to deal with this a little longer. then maybe on LI I will be able to find some people to go to the bars with. At least I know people there.

This girl erin is cool. she is very spontaneous can turn on a dime funny irish(with red hair green eyes and all. She was that crazy wild side. I like it. Unfortunately she has a boy friend. She is hoping to work out all the kinks this next week. You all know What I think. But I think it's best for her to not make any rash decisions like I made. Oye! I think that is good for one night maybe tomorrow I will talk about how much crazier my life is after hanging out with nate cindy and Val at the bars in the city.

friday alone!